Testimony

I have a testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ. I know that He lives. I know that we have a loving Heavenly Father who knows us and our circumstances perfectly. Even though I know these things, I still find myself struggling at times to fully trust in Him. I have been learning more and more over the last few years that Heavenly Father guides our lives, and that if we move forward with faith, things will work out for the best.

The hard part comes in when life is being difficult, and it's hard to see how things can work out in a positive way. A few months ago the daughter of a family in our ward shared her testimony regarding hope. Her husband has been battling cancer for some time (and if I recall correctly he is in remission now). She shared though how her hopes and prayers changed from just "heal my husband/fix this" to having a more eternal hope that everything will work out in the end, even if it doesn't go the way she would want. I was grateful for her testimony as it put more into words the things I feel that I've learned through our family's struggles these last few years. I've learned to have hope and trust my Father in Heaven to guide us to where we need to be, even if that means going through hard things. And having faith while going through those hard things that, while I can't always see how everything will work out in the end (and wondering why this has to happen), trusting that it will work out. And also trusting that I'll be ok if things don't work out in the way I envision.

I still have moments when I cry to Heavenly Father, telling Him that this is hard, and I don't see how everything will be ok. But I always get the reassurance that all is well, and to just hang on a little longer. It helps me to be able to not worry so much, and just continue to do and take care of those things that are within my control.

I am so grateful for the scriptures and the power of prayer. I am especially grateful for the atonement of our Savior, Jesus Christ. It gives me strength and comfort in times of need. And I'm so grateful it allows me to repent of mistakes so I can move on from them and work towards being a better person.

In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.